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I would love an fMRI scan and evaluation of my brain, a look into its dysfunction, and a snapshot of the defective wiring of child abuse.
Nothing I have read comes close to describing how my brain works.
My abuse, my betrayals, and my losses dominate my thought patterns.
What do you do when the negative, violent, and traumatic events of your life replay over and over?
Why does my mind concentrate on past trauma, past betrayal above all else?
Happy, kind, or trusting thoughts rarely enter my mind, and feeling safe has a battle with the danger these thoughts bring.
We avoid and isolate, a nomad-like existence, not belonging to any group, always on the fringes of society.
Few relationships tether us to this world.
I have no idea what a normal person thinks or what his/her life is like, and they have no clue about mine.
Life is different for us.
I have accepted this as reality.
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