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My body feels paralyzed from the level of anxiety and unrest in my solar plexus and gut regions.
At this intensity, my mind races, and it is hard to think level-headed.
It is almost overwhelming.
Funny, how we always try to escape intense anxiety.
I find myself pacing, trying to distance myself from anxiety.
Being on edge has always been close to me.
As a kid, my anxiety was so intense I would freeze up, finding it hard to speak.
My dad brutalized me, it made me an anxious mess, and I felt helpless to protect myself.
All this followed me into adulthood.
Hard for joy or happiness to exist inside intense anxiety and fear.
I fight for my security and sanity, happiness seems a pipe dream.
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