Pixabay: geralt
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PTSD by definition is irrational.
It is a survival reaction when no real danger exists.
Life is irrational inside my trauma, experiencing the event.
My girlfriend was gangraped at a frat house.
I saw what it did to her, I experienced the assault through the damage it did to her.
They bragged about what they did on that small campus, gangrape was not enough to fulfill their brutal lust, public ridicule and humiliation was added.
Now, this event and the terror and humiliation I felt are alive like it was yesterday.
That is irrational but the drugs and movie that plays brings enormous sadness.
One gals dreams ended that night.
I witnessed a kind 19 year old girl be destroyed emotionally.
She was never the same.
Life’s value took a big hit for me. Nothing I could accomplish could fix or change what happened to her.
Life is so cruel at times.
Life would never be same for her or me.
Rationally I know this has no power in this moment but it brings a deep deep sadness to my soul.
No,wonder I buried this.
Comments or opinions are welcomed.
How does It make you feel?
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