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PTSD operates without any conscious input from me, he feels like an internal entity, an invisible demon.
Yesterday while skirmishing with intrusive thoughts and emotions, I felt everything drop away momentarily.
Instead of being in the middle of the triggers, I was at a distance, separate, observing PTSDs mechanism.
I could feel life without PTSDs distractions or influence.
That dark cloud dissipated for a moment. How strange a feeling.
My nervous system calmed, while my anxiety and fear took a short vacation.
Life felt entirely different with PTSD being suppressed like this.
My first thought was, how do I make this last, perpetuate a life without the constant drama, danger, and anxiety of PTSD?
Is this a breakthrough or a fleeting moment?
I felt life as a normal person for the first time, I think.
I dream of a calm mind, a normal brain with normal thoughts, and a life filled with desire.
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