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We all know conscious fear.
Spotting a shark while swimming, losing an engine on a commercial flight, or being caught in a high rise fire, are obvious events producing intense fear.
My less obvious fears hide inside my past, especially my trauma
They manifest in my consciousness as anxiety, unworthiness, humiliation (shame).
So if an event is in the past, this fear is irrational, but it holds current power inside my being.
Perception becomes reality again. I feel the fear, but discount it’s reality.
I have been exploring the fear, humiliation has brought me.
Why does old shame have such power over us?
Why does an old event live on inside, just out of reach?
Yes, I know it is PTSD, stored implicit memory, but it has a conscious component to it.
What big fear has me grasping decades old humiliation?
Inside our minds, we know there is no real danger, no real fear.
Is some unknown need being met by carrying this anchor around like a medal.
What reward do we receive from honoring old fears?
Awareness of there existence is the first step towards ultimate release, in my opinion.
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