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In my mid 50’s PTSD ignited my fight or flight mechanism 15 times a day.
Those years were horrible, avoidance turned into agoraphobia, and I did not leave the house.
Normal life stopped completely, I became a recluse.
Intense therapy and meditation calmed my nervous system and gave me some relief for a couple of years.
Then three things happened, covid quarantine, a prescribed medicine launched my nervous system and an old hidden trauma erupted into my consciousness.
I do not fear my anxiety, but I do avoid triggers, people and situations.
Fear of PTSD regaining power haunts me and scares me.
I handled and calmed my fight or flight mechanism, but it is the symptoms and triggers that do the damage.
PTSD is like living in the middle of a crisis.
Trusting the world or people has never been easy.
Any thoughts?
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