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Childhood abuse impacts our life and does the most damage by repeatedly exploding month after month, year after year.
This strengthens the symptoms of PTSD and makes them almost a habit. We adjust our behavior, avoid triggers, while trying to limit the danger we feel.
Then, we start to anticipate danger, it feels like real fear.
It sure secretes our fear drugs (cortisol and adrenaline) numerous times a day.
We navigate life by avoiding triggers and danger subconsciously. It becomes a habit over time.
Hypervigilance becomes a way of keeping safe.
Avoiding calms our hypervigilance for a while but narrows life.
Hypervigilance happens quickly without thought, every time I go out, enter a building, or plan an outing.
I have never been able to stop my hypervigilance from happening but I can ignore the danger as not real at times.
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