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Childhood trauma has this extra dimension, an inner child who had to navigate abuse while the brain was not developed. We can integrate all the trauma we experienced and still our hardwiring is unchanged.
I saw my abused inner child, as vulnerable and weak, the origin of all the PTSD. My thought was it needed fixing, repaired, made over.
Shifting my focus away from trauma and triggers into functioning in this moment, has brought a massive change in how I see my inner child.
Without knowing it, in a response I wrote to the last post, my inner child became the strongest, bravest part of me.
My inner child had the fewest tools, was the most vulnerable part of my life but he survived the greatest abuse, childhood.
Instead of a meek coward, he navigated his way into adulthood with great strength. As an adult I see he survived where mature Marty would of failed.
Is this thinking outside the box or just Awareness being a reward for my inner exploration?
That inner child had strengths others did not have. He could endure intense pain and still take action.
My inner child developed incredible willpower and never gave up in the face of hardship.
What a paradigm shift from victim to my leading freedom fighter.
Now my challenge is to soothe that inner child in current situations, reparent in a way.
Again, this approach is trying to not handle my trauma, it is about functioning now, in this situation, this moment.
I have danced around the inner child numerous times and have written posts in the past, but something was different this time.
I never thought my inner child was the bravest part of my life.
My perceived weakness might be my biggest strength in reality.
How about you?
Your inner child helped you survive also.
He/She maybe your ultimate strength, not the damaged mess we perceive.
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