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Things to do while isolated: Updated: The Breathing Track: Secrets I think? –

This is one of the first videos from years ago.


Alex hogs the show.  We have both been working everyday, amazed at where this is taking us.  Alex, at 70 has changed drastically.  He was a perfectionist, rigid, clinging to thinking and fighting to be able to control life.


He used to worry, thinking about all the ways to please others, so many obligations, no time left for him.  Searching for the self-worth, that a child has hidden away from his constant search, he was lost.  Now, he has gained flexibility, a curiosity for the unknown and the focus to let go.




updated: never give up is contagious

An old post and video that I watch from time to time.

This kid opens me up to reaching a little farther, risking a little more, searching a little beyond my limits.  How he lives his life amazes me.   Happiness exists in the strangest places is all I see.  It exists in small areas where you think suffering and resentment would thrive.  It thrives in everyone he touches.

Updated: This is What we Hook up to, When we practice the Breathing Track or Mindfulness or Meditation!

Bouncing Back”– Rewriting your Brain for Maximum Resilience: Linda Graham
“Left hemisphere: Verbal processing: Language, Speech, Symbols
Right Hemisphere: nonverbal processing: visual images, body movements, emotions, experiences in relationship
Left hemisphere: linear processing (one bit of data after another in sequence)
Right hemisphere: holistic processing (seeing the big picture)
Left hemisphere: logical, rational processing: abstract reasoning and analysis, cause and effect.
Right hemisphere: emotional processing, including processing of facial expressions in fusiform gurus,
Left hemisphere: Sense of social and emotional self”


Jill Bolte Taylor is a neuroanatomist who suffered a stroke that shut down her left hemisphere.    The right side of brain is massive.

Update:: __A New Film from the Studios of My back jacuzzi parlor

A new fancy LED model is almost done.  I am envisioning doing a series with parts adding more depth to everyone’s practice.  Starting with tracing the breathing track with your hand while you inhale and exhale all the way to application to triggers and beyond healing.
. The Breathing Track was born in an effort to simplify the process of practicing mindfulness for people wanting to heal from Trauma, PTSD, Complex PTSD, agoraphobia or other anxiety disorders.
My path was rather long and arduous starting a meditation or mindfulness (meditation) program in my garage by myself.  From there, I searched out a small local Zen center to strengthen my practice.  This took a few years to reach a place of emptiness (no thought) for short periods.  Along the way, I learned no goals, to sit with intention and support of others.  Loving Kindness was the last piece of the puzzle.
My complex PTSD was much better and I was gaining some freedom and relief from the once constant flow of cortisol and fear.  I would sit and ask for more understanding of the breath and all it’s connections and power it had.  My wife could not believe the depth and time spent investigating my breath.
I realized some things which were never obvious to me. The inhales were cooler than the exhales.  We pause after an exhale to let the used air to clear before taking in another oxygen filled breath.
The inhale needed a little more time to enrich the exchange of oxygen to feed the brain.  Remember the brain uses 25% of the bodies oxygen.  So all of a sudden these so called pauses had more importance.
My best results seemed to have a certain slower rhythm and flow when meditating.  How could I make this easier and quicker.  Buddhas Brain came along and finally I knew the secrets of the mind/brain.  We made the ego up, and the fight or flight mechanism was the fear feeling not the thoughts.
I plugged all my knowledge and practice to find a better way.  I knew that we always get lost in thought during the pauses or transitions.  It was easy to just follow the breath in the nostrils noticing how the breath eases past our nose hairs.
So getting lured into thoughts happens in the pauses.  What could we do to fix that.  Finally I connected the inhales and exhales making the current breathing track.
It worked.  Then after a couple of months use other benefits started appearing.  keeping thoughts out of my sits was much easier.  My breath liked the balance and flow of the track.  I found my breath had a speed which it gravitated to and the mind loved the form and balance.
Then I found my mind body and breath were soothed by the strength of the quiet and focus.  My practice reached deeper levels and more understanding of how to kill PTSD the quickest became clear.

Updated:…How the Amygdala works: Could you stay calm under that Helmet while you are anticipating What is Waiting for you!

This is practice, using adrenal stress in a Survival situation.  We experience the tunnel vision, hearing shutdown, loss of fine motor skills, and increase in heart rate,respiration and blood pressure?   It is the ability to follow our breaths and act calmly when we are triggered.  Learn that PTSD can not stop you from living your life first.

This video has some great info on the brain and the science of fear.  The graphics of the brain and amygdala are the best I have seen.  This is about a couple of exercises to react to fear and freeze responses.

Part two:

A Memorial Weekend Thought about Us

Françoise Nelly


I believe this about all of us.


Our minds have unlimited potential for growing and changing!


Reach a little farther, risk a little more, live life fully.


The quote beside the picture is by Walt Whitman.

Army Ranger commits suicide before 8th Deployment

This is his wife and her story.  Would you diagnose a soldier with seven, eight or nine deployments as complex PTSD because of the duration of time?

Good Will Hunting (Not Your Fault)

This scene from the movie Good Will Hunting is powerful. I like to imagine Robin Williams is speaking to me. Child abuse is not your fault. Your organism will understand this if you keep working at it.

What Healing Looks Like

This post has brought more attention than we thought possible.

We think it is because this shows healing and Alex describes music with such passion, he has found a way to enter into that space with mindfulness.  We all can see how the music envelopes his whole body and soul now, without his attachments from childhood to cloud his view.

Alex illustrates someone like us, who was trapped in disassociation about performance, character and perfection from childhood.  His ambition and passion were always out there and not close enough to see clearly or be able to be mindful.  We can see, he has succeeded and this is what a small shift of not being capable of failure can do for you.  

We do not know what day or what hour a shift occurs.  That is why leaving goals alone and concentrating on mindfulness daily heals us.

This is a friend of mine, Alex, who until recently worried about his performance on the piano.  Music begins at 2:48.

Childhood events formed his attitude – much like the rest of us.  He always used to play filled with tension and fearful of a mistake.  He was scared of not being perfect which in turn caused pain. He became tortured by the instrument he so passionately loved.

He recently realized trying to play flawlessly, like Chopin, was trying to be someone else.  He accepted that his effort was enough.  This was the first shift.  He then began to practice the inability to fail for a half of an hour a day.

He would slow down his hands and pay close attention to the feel of what he was doing.

Discoveries of things like this heal us also.  What are you drawn to? 

Explore it. Please.

Be Your Own John Wooden

Maybe we could use this man for our coach.  We need some encouragement and wisdom on our path for inspiration and guidance.

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