I am 69 now and help others with chronic pain, PTSD, C-PTSD, agoraphobia, depression and anxiety. My journey is to live peacefully and happily while having chronic pain and C-PTSD. My life was consumed with pain, extreme fear, and a nervous system that had exploded. I suffered while trying to find a way out.

The lessons learned and that experience have guided me to help others. My goal is to support others on their journey with directions and encouragement. On my path I have seen many people online in discussion boards who never heal.  Coping mechanisms, dissociation, and anger confuse most PTSDers to quit trying. Avoidance can lead to agoraphobia. A therapist once told me that you could go down too far and never get back. That is always in my head.

I have enjoyed short periods of time that were almost symptom free. It’s almost scary, I was afraid to move, worried it might disappear.

Happiness for me was the cessation of PTSD.

I felt so free and knew the accomplishment was the most difficult thing I had done in my life.

Now, a repressed trauma has exploded. This one has betrayal and combined with childhood abuse, it has disrupted life.

Childhood trauma never completely leaves, stress or a crisis can summon the demons.

If I could recommend one book, it would be Buddha’s Brain: The Practical Neuroscience of Happiness, Love, and Wisdom  by Rick Hanson.

6 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by Vicky Morgan on February 4, 2011 at 4:28 pm

    This is great stuff-useful everyday stuff-thanks for the edits. I am PTSD and work on myself daily this helps alot!

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  3. Thanks for making this blog! I will be checking in quite frequently!

  4. Posted by Sangye Menla on October 28, 2021 at 6:35 pm

    Dear Marty,

    I am really pleased to send you this message today for so many reasons !
    I would like to say that i have been a reader of your blog for many years and it brought to me a huge fresh air in term of approach and in term of understanding what Complex PTSD does really mean concretely and what it entails practically to heal it !
    I am so grateful to you Marty for bringing such synthetic information and extensive experience to humanity via internet ! Thank you so much for the help you provide me and I assume for many others as well !
    I am writing you from France, i am 51 and my experience of the CPTSD started 12 years ago just after a surgery.
    In France, PTSD and furthermore CPTSD was quite unknown from “official” medical authorities and the ways to heal is part of unthought matters. Therefore, It has been a very hard path up to your site, then to meditation, further Vajrayana buddhism and now thankfully what i consider as a real course of healing of my cptsd.
    At this point of my experience, I really would like to propose to readers in french a site inspired from yours so that I could give back to the others a bit of what I received from all the individuals who helped me through out the path, including you !
    My site is
    I wish you all the best on your healing path.
    Take care

  5. Oh my

    Thank you thank you

    And pay it forward is a gift

    Is there a translate on your blog

    I will follow you

    Responses like yours rekindles my commitment to put myself out there

    Congratulations on your successes

    Makes me smile

    Thank you

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