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It has been a while since I posted. I needed an emotional break.
Recently, while examining my behavior and habits, fear of failure was always under the surface.
Even retired, my fear of failure influences my behavior and emotional state.
I would say many professional athletes compete out of fear of failure.
We feel it’s a trial of worthiness, every challenge, game, or tournament.
If it’s a team sport, we fear letting our teammates down.
In sports, a lack of performance leads to firing, death to who we thought we were. My mother told me God made me to be a professional baseball player. Who can I be now at 71?
Some athletes have considerable difficulty losing their supposed true identity.
Fear of failure is jet fuel for worry.
Self-worth has an enormous influence on every aspect of life.
My work is to be aware of fear’s influence, then adjust letting these emotions release.
The more that I can stay present, the better chance for equanimity.
“Equanimity is steady through vicissitudes, equally close to the things you may like and the things you do not like.” By Sheila Catherine
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