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Traits from my Childhood abuse (Complex PTSD):
Fear of abandonment, low self-esteem, lack of trust, heightened sense of danger (hypervigilance), the anticipation of significant loss or worry, and a strong drive to avoid or isolate.
As everyone describes the benefits of community, of healthy attachment, we feel the opposite and take action to avoid people and organizations.
We have an issue with our safety, as a child, we never felt safe.
I think this fear drives us to isolate or avoid people.
It is hard to understand this cognitively, most feelings are subconscious, abstract, and confusing.
All of this is complicated by the way trauma is stored in a high-priority way and in a place we do not have conscious access.
PTSD has its own key to our defense mechanism, and our fear drugs (cortisol and adrenaline).
This feels like real power, real danger, and real harm.
Knowing these mechanisms of PTSD can help us navigate better.
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PTSD - A Way Out.com 
Posted by rudid96 on September 16, 2022 at 3:57 pm
Childhood patterns haunt our days and nights. I feel the tightness in my chest, the hairs standing up on my extremities, and my heart racing after encounters with people. That’s childhood trauma infiltrating my adult life. I breathe and try to work thru it. Atm, I’m stretching to engage. After each one, I need to shake it off like a dog caught in the rain. My entire body is activated. It doesn’t feel good but I know it has nothing to do with current days events.