Inheriting Anxiety

In a discussion with my daughter about my defense mechanism, she disagreed with me.

I judged my defense mechanism was broken, she said that judgment was erroneous.

My defense mechanism, my hypervigilance was very, very, very sensitive, she said, not broken.

In the right environment, a hyper-sensitive defense mechanism would keep me alive.

If spotting danger was an asset, I would thrive.

How do we navigate normal life with a nervous system like this?

I inherited anxiety.

Childhood abuse made the anxiety much worse.

Fear and intense anxiety are hard to differentiate.

How do you handle an active defense mechanism?

5 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by rudid96 on September 9, 2022 at 10:48 pm

    First, please indulge the moment of digression from my response to the question.
    Please know that you were missed. I realize that your demons were particularly acting out. I understand, and I’m sorry for all the difficulties this brings to your being.
    How do I handle an active defense mechanism?
    I run a constant defense. Constantly looking ahead, examining the angles, looking for ways out emotionally, physically, and socially.

  2. Thank you for noticing

    Everything changes

    I am hoping

  3. Posted by rudid96 on September 9, 2022 at 10:54 pm

    You are in my thoughts.
    Yes, everything ‘does.’ change

  4. Thanks again

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