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In a discussion with my daughter about my defense mechanism, she disagreed with me.
I judged my defense mechanism was broken, she said that judgment was erroneous.
My defense mechanism, my hypervigilance was very, very, very sensitive, she said, not broken.
In the right environment, a hyper-sensitive defense mechanism would keep me alive.
If spotting danger was an asset, I would thrive.
How do we navigate normal life with a nervous system like this?
I inherited anxiety.
Childhood abuse made the anxiety much worse.
Fear and intense anxiety are hard to differentiate.
How do you handle an active defense mechanism?
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Posted by Oiwuri Carl on September 9, 2022 at 10:35 pm
Prayer.
Posted by rudid96 on September 9, 2022 at 10:48 pm
First, please indulge the moment of digression from my response to the question.
Please know that you were missed. I realize that your demons were particularly acting out. I understand, and I’m sorry for all the difficulties this brings to your being.
How do I handle an active defense mechanism?
I run a constant defense. Constantly looking ahead, examining the angles, looking for ways out emotionally, physically, and socially.
Posted by Marty on September 9, 2022 at 10:51 pm
Thank you for noticing
Everything changes
I am hoping
Posted by rudid96 on September 9, 2022 at 10:54 pm
You are in my thoughts.
Yes, everything ‘does.’ change
Posted by Marty on September 9, 2022 at 11:19 pm
Thanks again