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My PTSD has exploded.
Somehow my body stays full of anxiety without any strong jolts from my fight or flight exploding.
My solar plexus and gut stay tense and agitated.
My mind is bombarded by negative traumatic thoughts.
PTSD dominates thought and emotion, I try to unplug this mechanism.
I fight to stay present.
My body feels paralyzed with abstract fear.
I fight to calm my anxiety, physically by hiking strenuously uphill and spiritually through meditation.
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PTSD - A Way Out.com 
Posted by Marty on September 8, 2022 at 4:15 pm
This is how my childhood felt at times
Pure fear and anxiety
Posted by susanraustocker on September 8, 2022 at 4:22 pm
What would you do for yourself if you were a little girl? Color? Find a swing? Watch movies that make you feel good? Treating ourselves gently and kindly reduces stress.
Posted by Marty on September 8, 2022 at 4:42 pm
Thank you for the suggestions