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Inner Drug Store:
“For every emotion we feel, a corresponding biochemical substance is automatically released in our bodies.
Think about how the felt sense of anger is different from the felt sense of calm or amusement.
Especially for those of us who have trouble connecting with our bodies or our emotions, these chemical changes may happen below our level of awareness.
But they still happen.
The inner drug store is not all bad.
There are bottles of joy, peacefulness, and spirituality to name a few.
But we Adult Children often gravitate toward the drugs of negative excitement.
Growing up in dysfunctional households, our everyday state can become one of hypervigilance.
Am I safe?
What mood is Mom in?
We walk on eggshells trying to be invisible.
Dad’s car just pulled in the driveway, is he drunk?
We scan the house for things that might anger him and quickly try to neutralize them.”
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My two cents: My life has an abundance of hypervigilance like other abused kids, we grew up living in fear.
Yes, my fight or flight fired violently in the beginning but calmed with practice.
Meditation practice tells us to notice where emotions manifest inside our bodies.
Mine are located in my solar plexus or gut area for the most part.
I yearn for calm, for the constant feeling of upset to disappear.
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