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“Ruminative type symptoms are also seen in posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD) under the general header of negative alterations in cognition and mood.
These symptoms include pervasive negative beliefs about oneself or the world, such as feelings of self-blame and guilt, which often coincide with distorted beliefs about the traumatic event that led to the development of PTSD (APA, 2013).
Persistent depressive symptoms, such as negative emotional state (e.g. anger, shame, etc.) and inability to feel pleasure (anhedonia), as well as hyper-arousal symptoms, like exaggerated startle response and constantly feeling on edge or hyper-vigilant, are also features of PTSD symptomatology (APA, 2013).
Additionally, PTSD is characterized by intrusive symptoms, defined as recurrent, involuntary, and distressing trauma-related memories; these often appear in nightmares or during flashbacks, which are powerful, involuntary episodes where a memory is re-experienced (APA, 2013).
This profile of symptoms often leads to diminished interest in or participation in normal activities and result in social isolation (APA, 2013).
These symptoms are also associated with significant distress and may increase maladaptive emotion regulation, such as negative appraisal and avoidance.”
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Posted by Anonymous on August 22, 2022 at 9:23 pm
Familiar with all of the given symptoms.
Not fun.
Hard work but some have lessened.
Have never been able to dismantle the hyper vigilance or startle response.
Wonder if anyone has been able to do that?
Posted by Marty on August 22, 2022 at 11:19 pm
My startle has settled. My nervous system loads slowly or it mixes with depression to hammer me
Hypervigilance
Has changed I am not looking for a physical assault but I fear danger from the unknown
I can not help the feelings of imminent danger that I fight to dismantle at times
At times it is free flowing not connected to anything specific
Goes back to not having a distinct self as a kid and not trusting
We have little core and less direction,
Many people know why they are on earth
I do not even want to guess
Posted by rudid96 on August 24, 2022 at 3:32 pm
Do you think that people who experience “little core and less direction” as the state of being make better actors? Do you believe this is partially the explanation for your own high success in sales?
Posted by Marty on August 24, 2022 at 4:08 pm
Mine was fueled by fear of failure
It all stems from the fear childhood abuse brought
It was my desire to survive, to gain approval.
Posted by rudid96 on August 24, 2022 at 6:14 pm
So your sense of self-preservation & survival allowed you to channel a different part of your inner schema. Interesting
Posted by Marty on August 24, 2022 at 6:42 pm
As far I can tell
I thought I needed to be twice as good to equal others
My father did an excellent job with criticism