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My mind or part of it seems like a separate entity, I call it PTSD.
This traumatic part is connected to my Ego, he is a world-class judgmental star.
He/She compares the present with the traumas of the past, it’s called dissociation, the kingpin of PTSD symptoms.
Time spent ruminating, dissociating into the past fuels our symptoms, and powers PTSD.
The longer the duration, the stronger PTSD becomes.
This PTSD mind melts into our Ego or vice versa.
My Ego was created under traumatic abuse, so he identifies as a PTSD Ego.
My daughter tells me I identify as a PTSD person or sufferer.
Well, I sure do not identify as anywhere close to normal.
When I meditate at times, my Ego drops away along with all my PTSD symptoms.
This is the freest feeling I experience.
The sirens of trauma take a momentary break.
I have worked diligently on shrinking my ego, lessening his impact.
Without the Ego dominating life, our hearts can begin to open for short periods.
It takes great awareness to realize how PTSD functions inside our brains.
Have you ever followed the concept of I or me to its origin?
Who am I is a trick question.
I is a mirage, a created identity moniker.
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PTSD - A Way Out.com 
Posted by Anonymous on August 13, 2022 at 5:53 pm
Mindful Marty, when you sit in silence, in meditation, there is a calming of your nervous system? Is that the peace of self of which you speak? “I” has a mirage like appearance. What of the person’s general outline? There are things despite my changing self that repeat everywhere. What’s that?
Posted by Marty on August 13, 2022 at 7:12 pm
I is the ego we create
True self is the calm heartfelt sense of who we really are
Posted by Americaoncoffee on August 21, 2022 at 6:27 am
Yep!