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Is it all a mirage, PTSD that is?
I read my posts about fear, anxiety, triggers, and intrusive thoughts, they seem so small, so feeble looking on paper.
Words can not convey PTSDs power over me, parts of my brain shut down during triggers firing, or while grasping intrusive thoughts.
Life changes when PTSD becomes active, confusion and anxiety dominate our being.
Is this real? Imagination? Mirage or fact?
I can not see concrete evidence, it is all about the past, it is abstract, only memories that are distorted.
Was my childhood that bad, the memories are confusing and out of sequence, time is distorted, and my fear spikes.
Physically we are unharmed, our defense mechanism works all too well.
Danger was spotted, the fight or flight mechanism fired violently, then calmed back down to our normal.
Why do we fear another trigger firing then?
Why do we avoid and fear something that does no physical damage?
The dumping of cortisol and adrenaline is extremely uncomfortable, our being is ramping up to face a perceived lethal threat.
We try to avoid these chemicals and any person or situation that is connected to them.
Our fight or flight mechanism firing as we secrete cortisol and adrenaline is what we label as fear.
That intense jolt in the solar plexus, like a numbing punch, is what we call fear.
PTSD fires that mechanism over and over, he has access to the switch.
PTSD would not be so powerful without access to that switch.
Thoughts, opinions?
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Posted by dfmarks on August 10, 2022 at 10:29 am
You are raising good questions. There is nothing rational about fear. I wonder what trauma you originally suffered?
Posted by Marty on August 10, 2022 at 11:19 am
My father was a violent narcissist, childhood abuse is the origin of my PTSD