PTSDs invisible prison.

My blog, my writing process, and the connection to my creativity have become a morning habit.

My inward gaze mixes with my cognitions, both questions and answers arrive.

Some have clarity while others remain confusing and cloudy.

PTSD hides in our cells and is stored as implicit memory, hidden in our right amygdala.

The storage process is heightened by fear (imminent danger), trauma shuts down parts of our prefrontal cortex, so distortion and confusion are always present.

I do not understand in any concrete way PTSDs abstract, perceived fear (emotional).

It is not physical danger, it is abstract and very emotionally charged a heightened and confusing fear.

We react the same way every time we come in contact with it.

All we know is that it feels close to emotional death, high anxiety or as it matures, more like shame.

We want to take flight when the trigger explodes, or take revenge subconsciously.

It is a shadow world we engage in, it is PTSDs invisible prison.

I know my PTSD thoughts and emotions, they arrive in a calm manner now, no cortisol or adrenaline, their poison is different but just as lethal.

6 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by rudid96 on July 27, 2022 at 10:58 pm

    I posted a comment earlier this morning. Just checking to see if it was received, or did I not actually hit ‘Post Comment’? I wasn’t wearing my glasses, and well, lots of things turn out differently when that happens.

  2. This post

  3. Without my glasses I can write jibberish

  4. Please
    Send again

  5. Posted by rudid96 on July 28, 2022 at 3:23 pm

    Oh my, this is what comes of no glasses. I’ll try and recreate the response.

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