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During my meditation sits, my goal is to open my heart, to not think, to find the unworded knowing.
I can get to the no thought space, observing my breath and body sensations intimately.
To be honest, I have no clue what an open heart feels like, how to trust the universe, or feel safe in this world.
The path is not well lit or traveled.
We must have faith, I guess.
It must be very subtle in the beginning.
Is this the path to knowing, healing, or well-being?
Have you opened your heart up after childhood abuse?
Please share?
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Posted by rudid96 on July 20, 2022 at 2:47 pm
Why must I “have faith?” Faith in what? Something mystical? Spiritual? Human?
Posted by Marty on July 20, 2022 at 2:50 pm
How else do we expect to heal
I take action and hope it bears fruit
I sure am not convinced I will heal especially after 10 years of trying
PTSD makes us cynical about life, others and healing
We have to resist
Posted by Marty on July 20, 2022 at 2:51 pm
Faith in our effort will bring relief
Posted by rudid96 on July 20, 2022 at 2:53 pm
So you’ve got ‘faith’ in the active process of resilience? Getting up again and again despite the number of times you’ve been down? That’s faith in oneself. Yes?
Posted by Marty on July 20, 2022 at 2:55 pm
I have faith in my actions, not to heal, but to give me best chance for enjoying anything
My effort is a gift in itself
I have faith if I do not give up, that is victory
If I can do it with a decent attitude, a blessing
Posted by Don't Lose Hope on July 20, 2022 at 3:38 pm
Opening your heart – even to yourself – is an act of great courage.
Posted by Marty on July 20, 2022 at 3:41 pm
I do not know about courage, but it is similar to trying to walk in pitch-black darkness
You tiptoe and stumble
And know your in unfamiliar territory