PTSD: Narrowing of life

Life changes drastically when PTSD explodes, when hypervigilance and triggers unleash their chemical fear responses.

For the last decade, since PTSD exploded, I have avoided and isolated, made decisions for safety over any other desire.

Desires are suppressed amid PTSD danger, seems cortisol and adrenaline destroy it.

Our fears are more subconscious, abstract like shame, humiliation, and ridicule.

We fear anxiety also, triggers firing out of control.

We fear what the universe will do to us next.

Yes, in childhood we knew life sentenced us to violence and abuse.

Why would we think as adults that things would change?

Life has always been violent and abusive for some of us.

That’s why we avoid.

2 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by rudid96 on June 27, 2022 at 3:34 pm

    Does your pain outweigh the payoff? When I’m doing alright, I can push past the negatives.

  2. It is what is in my heart

    Remember I am diagnosed with 100% disabked from chronic pain and spinal injuries.

    I know this must add to my symptoms

    I can navigate things at times, but the negatives never go away

    I feel apart from any crowd I am near

    What is the payoff you are talking about

    Does it impact healing your PTSD?

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