.If we do not heal, do we try to escape?


If we do not heal, do we try to escape PTSD’s invisible prison?

Hell yes.

Whatever works, avoidance, denial, deception, or numbing ourselves.

Some people cut themselves to find relief, some drink, some will do anything for approval, some do drugs, some are paralyzed, and some commit suicide.

It does not matter to them, escape is the ultimate goal.

If you have given up and become a victim life is full-time avoidance, denial, deception, and numbing.

Shocking that I have insight into these feelings.

Hard to be strong all day long against PTSD’s relentless attacks.

We have weak moments, life becomes exhaustive and we feel guilty.

We dust ourselves off and return to our daily battle.

PTSD is a messy disorder for us, it will always be a confusing ordeal of subconscious influence.

Remember, we will take losses but we never give up.

8 responses to this post.

  1. PTSD is a battle inside our head, it is not an external battle

    We fight with external stimuli but change comes from within

    Have awareness what we need to impact

  2. Posted by rudid96 on June 22, 2022 at 4:51 pm

    This post is timely. Yesterday, my therapist said a seemingly innocuous statement. I wish I was one of those people with lightning-speed comebacks but alas, another personal flaw is that I process slowly. Today, I realize what I experienced was silent rage. Synthesizing her therapeutic comment boils down to stop looking at the negative &, flipping it, and looking for the positive is my goal. REALLY? C-PTSD is one long, slice-by-slice trauma in which relationships at best, hurt. The most healing I’ve done is to learn to identify some activities that bring me peace and help stabilize my day. As a person with C-PTSD, there’s conditioned hypervigilance for emotional and physical self-protection. In my world, good comes in drops and evaporates without warning. This is the Radical Acceptance of unresolved trauma. For some, life becomes a Kum-bah-yah existence. For too many, it’s learning to live without flinching at the fact that life can be unfair, period. Pretending to be a Pollyanna is the last thing one wants to hear when you’re on the bottom.

  3. If I hear you, if we only focus on positive thoughts, we will heal.

    Most people and many therapist do not understand complex PTSD, SERIOUS CHILDHOOD ABUSE AND ITS CONSEQUENCES

    How many of us really heal?

    I have been at this a long time, intense effort, so we must be failures if positive thoughts could heal me

  4. Posted by rudid96 on June 22, 2022 at 5:23 pm

    ATM, I’m somewhat fed up with therapists claiming they treat C-PTSD. I’ve learned most of my healing tools from a coach who shares similarities to my experiences, reading, listening, and participating in this blog. I’m positive – positive that my life experience has molded me into a person that must WORK at living. I’m subject to depression, hopelessness, and fits of shame. My connections with people are more transactional than relational. I’m hypervigilant and prone to distrust. These are just some of the childhood and adulthood trauma fallout. Will that magically change by swallowing the “happy pill” BS? Nope. I’m grown and then some. What I strive for is not HEALING in the sense that all this will be magically erased. I’m aiming for learning how to Adult more effectively. Hopefully, that can make the management a little less painful.

  5. I have been diagnosed with bipolar for 30+ years. Through the trauma (hallucinations visual & auditory) from bipolar and watching my life crumble before my very eyes and the challenges from that that still plague me today it is apparent that I struggle more from a type of ptsd than the actual bipolar a lot of times. Decades of therapy have had minimal effect. Started working with a life coach and she has helped. I’m in a jail, created by a part of me as a way to cope. While it keeps me “safe”, it has stunted every area of my life. I am in the process of leaving that jail but it ain’t easy. It’s ingrained so much that doing a visualization exercise cause me to break out on huge rashes and feel like I was being bitten by ants all over my body for a good 2 hours. Doing it for myself of course but others suffer through this as well. My wife has faithfully/frustratingly been with me through it all. So my freedom equals a better life for her as well. I’m at least hopeful now that there is a way out of this prison in my mind.

  6. Sorry for your suffering.

    Along with PTSD comes it’s partner depression

    Life for us is not easy and you have a double whammy

    Good luck to you

    I commend you for not giving up

  7. Posted by rudid96 on June 22, 2022 at 9:28 pm

    fjones619, the suffering stinks but every time there’s a win; connecting, pushing aside a depressive episode, showing up, it’s a cause to celebrate. We do what we can!

  8. Survivors

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