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Abused kids struggle in adult life with relationships.
We bring drama, mood swings, anxiety, lack of trust, and PTSD with us.
If we are married it takes a special mate to navigate our PTSD symptoms.
We can not act normally when triggers explode or PTSD activates with emotional intrusive thoughts.
When we isolate or avoid, how do we explain this to our mate?
We struggle with relationship responsibilities.
Before my PTSD exploded, I was married.
Afterward I was a completely different person, life narrowed for me.
In due time, the marriage collapsed. Looking back, it was mainly my fault.
A triple rollover, followed by spinal fusions, and nerve killings delivered chronic pain to my PTSD.
Hard to have a relationship when you go agoraphobic.
Inside the 15-person chronic pain group, all but one of us lost our mate.
The men left the women immediately, followed by the wives and girlfriends who stuck it out a little longer.
I subconsciously picked the female version of my abusive father for a wife.
We are attracted to familiarity without being aware of it.
PTSD is generational in my family, my dad, my first wife and the father of my grandkids all share strong narcissistic traits.
My life before PTSD exploded was different.
I can not envision that guy in my head anymore.
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