PTSD: Avoidance

The question is not if we avoid, but how much.

I avoided the most when my fight or flight mechanism was firing 10 plus times a day.

My agoraphobia lasted six months, it left me scarred, afraid, and lost.

Meditation and exposure therapy helped me past agoraphobia.

It was a great victory however it was painful and I suffered.

Childhood abuse (Complex PTSD) wires the brain differently, mine searched for danger, then fired my fight or flight mechanism for protection.

Remember that shuts down some of the executive branch, our prefrontal cortex.

Triggered, we sense a near-lethal threat, the prefrontal cortex is confused and partially offline.

Our whole being shifts to surviving, we are scared to death.

Thinking is confused as cortisol and adrenaline flood our system.

Forget trying to explain this to others, you have to experience an out-of-control nervous system, the severity, and FEAR produced.

My PTSD and avoidance have matured.

Now, I navigate life a little better but do not even think about going to social functions, crowds, or certain events.

If I have to go to a function, I can block out and distract myself to limit the damage.

Normal people do not understand how much energy and pain we go through preparing to face our PTSD Triggers.

Then there are all the questions and exploration of the interaction afterward.

Our mind wants to judge, and prepare for the next time we venture into dangerous waters.

Childhood abuse brings a danger that never leaves our brain, it is like a big stain ruining the whole carpet.

How does avoidance impact your life?

5 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by Shelley Berry on May 10, 2022 at 6:36 pm

    Reblogged this on Shelley's Transformation Lab and commented:
    every damn day

  2. Posted by rudid96 on May 11, 2022 at 12:21 am

    “How does avoidance impact my life? ” I don’t return phone calls, don’t attend functions. Ruminate endlessly on whether to stay or go. Life is more ‘don’t’ than ‘do.’

  3. I navigate the obstacles

  4. Posted by rudid96 on May 12, 2022 at 3:15 pm

    C-PTSD is challenging. One would prefer a life less about ‘navigating the obstacles’ & more about partaking with confidence.

  5. Life has always had unworthiness and suffering

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