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I have been observing my mind more intently, the inner workings, and the judgments.
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Yesterday morning arrived with a feeling of impending doom. A weird uneasy, anxious feeling.
Internal observation showed nothing concrete to trigger this foreboding emotion.
So PTSD, the mental constructs of trauma fuels some of our mood swings.
I could not touch that awkward sensation, that tenseness in the solar plexus, that tightness in the gut, or that panic in my nervous system.
Mechanically, I hiked a little harder to flush out all the poisons and anxiety.
Emotionally, I meditated intently, letting go of all the noise I could.
I expect this unrest as part of life. This is a healthy relationship, rather than resent not being normal.
If I expected a calm and easy flow of my days I would suffer.
Know the mood will shift as always.
Happiness looks different for PTSD sufferers.
Set realistic goals for yourself.
Playing defense is part of coping with PTSD.
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