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Childhood abuse clouds my already sparse memory.
Large swaths of time are absent, my memories are distorted and sequentially hard to decipher.
Traumatic memories (triggers) on the other hand are clear, vivid, and powerful.
We all slow down on the interstate to see the grizzly accident, watch the nightly news dominated by sensational crimes and tragedies, while the mundane or normal parts of life go unnoticed.
The traumatic incidents we endure are stored in a special space, we label them implicit memories.
These memories are offline or not reachable consciously, stored in the right amygdala.
So trauma or implicit memory has an abstract quality, PTSD fear is a reaction to a perceived lethal threat.
I know my triggers are more benign than dangerous.
I still do not trust people, avoid crowds and carry an enormous amount of worry.
That’s powerful for what I consider a benign symptom.
Does anyone understand this?
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Posted by rudid96 on April 29, 2022 at 10:08 pm
Of course, I understand it. I live it. I live it, every single day.
Posted by Marty on April 30, 2022 at 12:41 pm
I know you do