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Survivor label makes me uncomfortable, I wake up every day and live what’s left.
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If that’s survival, it’s not something I ever aspired to, something maybe a step up from homelessness.
How do we describe our lives?
Do you have a clue?
I am haunted, like a horror film, that’s my PTSD life, extreme fear, paralyzing numbness, anxious feelings close to puking.
This started in high school! No need for superlative adjectives to dramatize the impact.
Serious PTSD never disappears, it is a matter of intensity and duration.
How much of your day does PTSD DOMINATE?
Do you see your path to wellbeing clearly?
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Posted by rudid96 on April 18, 2022 at 2:35 pm
How much of my day does PTSD dominate?
Most of my waking day is a running inner dialogue. For me, it takes concentrated effort to conjure a compassionate adult part that welcomes trauma skewed thinking and responds with equanimity and kindness. Refocusing on my breath and being in the moment takes up a lot of mental energy. Aside from huge triggers (such as those that recently clouded my vision), this is the PTSD work. And ‘work’ it is!
Posted by Marty on April 18, 2022 at 2:49 pm
Mine varies from totally involved to not much
The thoughts are my problem
Thoughts bring the emotions
How do you navigate life with your husband
What happens when you retreat and rear?