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You reach a point, I have met others with my same pathology, abused kids, suffering at 50, 60, 70, etc, where we accept our fate.
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We adjust, fight the daily battle, accept healing is a mirage, and reality is overwhelming.
We have improved but PTSD still has power as a disruptive force.
I need to survive, so PTSD is alive but so am I.
It is a duel, a daily battle, a game of variant intensities of highs and lows.
Mood swings were unavoidable, and devastating to all relationships.
We must survive, endure this part of our life and continue to improve.
I feel like an extreme introvert one minute, near-normal the next, other times, an extrovert, a confident scoundrel.
Who am I?
A split personality, me and PTSD me?
It’s so strange, a plethora of woes.
What a quandary of drama called life.
I need to suck it up, take my risks, and live as fully as I can.
Help, ideas, comments, opinions?
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PTSD - A Way Out.com 
Posted by Don't Lose Hope on April 16, 2022 at 1:41 pm
I think you hit the nail on the head. PTSD changes us, and it becomes a life long quest to accept that this has happened, and the ramifications for us.
Posted by Marty on April 16, 2022 at 1:43 pm
How did you know I was a carpenter for a while
Thanks
We still have to live, healed or partially healed
Posted by Don't Lose Hope on April 16, 2022 at 1:50 pm
Hahaha …. And, yes, we still have to live, healed or partially healed.
Posted by rudid96 on April 16, 2022 at 1:59 pm
The highs and lows are exhausting to others and to ourselves. I believe the consistent inconsistency is maddening. I regularly wonder will the ‘real’ rudid96 please stand up.
Posted by Marty on April 16, 2022 at 2:00 pm
Will the real slim shady please stand up. Sounds similar to Eminem
Who am i
I feel like an extreme introvert one minute, near-normal the next, other times, an extrovert, a confident scoundrel.
Posted by Anonymous on April 16, 2022 at 3:00 pm
A scoundrel. Interesting.
Posted by Marty on April 16, 2022 at 3:01 pm
Do you know me anonymous
Posted by biglittleus on April 16, 2022 at 4:58 pm
I have only just started to realise the life changing implications of my past. It seems so huge and prevalent. I’m not yet at a place of acceptance.
Posted by Marty on April 16, 2022 at 5:09 pm
We heal.slowly in increments