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The edges of age, both bookends, childhood and old age are a more vulnerable time for us (PTSD).
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As a child we were helpless to resist a caregiver, we were a captive, owned by a giant.
Our brains are wired differently, this will be our challenge for the rest of our lives, spotting danger will become a lifelong habit.
I am not able to distract my mind with activities like I use to.
As a senior with chronic pain, depression, and Complex PTSD, my physical and emotional assets have deteriorated.
Getting old sucks, the alternative sucks even more.
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My pain has increased while my physical skills have declined.
Unable to work because of physical decline and injuries, I am isolated from my social network.
I can not change my plight by finding a job now.
Ptsd sucks for seniors is my new motto.
I guess every age has its drawbacks when dealing with childhood abuse.
We are the lucky ones, we take action and try to heal.
We suffer less, have our good moments plus hope is still alive.
We have improved incrementally but remain a prisoner of our abuse.
Taking action brings satisfaction, changes us from victim to survivor instantly.
Giving up is a sentence of intense suffering, dark depression, and hopelessness.
When things get tough is a daily ritual for us, action is needed every day.
We must feel some power over our trauma.
I still influence what my mind latches onto.
We have power, we must find ways to use it creatively.
Happy healing!
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PTSD - A Way Out.com 
Posted by Don't Lose Hope on March 27, 2022 at 1:03 pm
I love the way this post ends, despite the very real difficulties you contend with: “I still influence what my mind latches onto. We have power, we must find ways to use it creatively.”
Posted by Marty on March 27, 2022 at 1:15 pm
We don’t lose hope
Says it all
Posted by Angie on March 27, 2022 at 8:16 pm
I couldn’t agree with this more!
I’ve been on my healing journey for the last 10 years or so. I finally had a break down about 6 years ago and accepted the fact that I needed to get into therapy. There was a lot of shame that surfaced with that but I feel like I’ve made so much progress over the last 3-4 years. Looking at who I have become after 40 years of living with the memories. I tried desperately to just block it all out until I was 35.
I love how you say Happy Healing. Healing is hard and painful but there’s also this feeling of peace and acceptance that comes with it when you’re in that process.
Happy healing Marty!
Posted by Marty on March 27, 2022 at 8:18 pm
We journey together
Posted by Marty on March 27, 2022 at 8:18 pm
Thank you
Posted by rudid96 on March 31, 2022 at 2:12 pm
When I sink into melancholy regarding the lost opportunities of youth, I remind myself that there is also a relief in age. I’m not hostage to those holding the power. My youth wasn’t kind. Today, I own my mind and body. No matter the PTSD moments, I know that they are my own.
Posted by Marty on March 31, 2022 at 2:39 pm
I resent the hell out of my father and college girlfriend for their betrayals
I was helpless as a kid, not any more
I was a victim than not now
Posted by rudid96 on March 31, 2022 at 5:19 pm
I hear you loud and clear!
Posted by HOPE TBI on April 19, 2022 at 10:12 pm
Thank you for sharing your experiences. Each step forward is progress. We may wobble, stumble, and even fall down, yet we continue to make progress with each concentrated effort. PTSD is a dark passenger that impacts us all in very different ways as we embrace our healing journey. Thank you for your effort to bring awareness to PTSD. Come on over and check out my site, where I bring awareness to polytrauma and brain injury. http://www.hopetbi.com
Posted by Marty on April 19, 2022 at 11:05 pm
Very nice site thank you