PTSD causes me to fill idle moments with distractions, some action or actions to occupy the space trauma covets.
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It is early, 4 in the morning, up early with a sick cat, somehow I need an action that fills two hours.
My trauma thoughts of negativity and unworthiness are looming on the sideline, ready to dominate and create suffering.
This is our moment-to-moment battle for control of our brain.
We suffer if trauma gets an audience, we win if we can stay present and focused.
The road is a rollercoaster ride through life.
The alternate brings pain and suffering at higher intensities and duration.
So fight like hell for the smallest improvement.
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Posted by Marty on March 22, 2022 at 1:08 pm
My meditation practice needs an injection if energy
I need to sit more