Our Abusive Caregiver


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So we start life with an abusive caregiver, never quite realizing the depth of our damage, it is all we know.

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Therapy is needed immediately. Bad habits are being practiced daily.

Avoidance, hypervigilance, intrusive thoughts, time distortion, and flashbacks are a few.

Abused kids never realize the depth of the damage or the importance of addressing it.

I was 55 when things erupted, denying trauma ended that day.

Only took me four decades to address the issue.

Ptsd was a habit by then, symptoms were part of everyday life.

We have so many behaviors influenced subconsciously by traumas’ deadly impact.

Soldiers have war explode on them decades later, PTSD lying dormant until weakness or crisis in later life catches up.

PTSD gains strength the longer it flows freely inside us.

Childhood trauma happens in an environment where help never arrives.

Our abusers are not keen on therapy or accountability.

Abusers like isolation, total control, the freedom to act without consequences.

My therapist asked one day, did your dad hit you anywhere it showed?

A Question I never thought of.
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One response to this post.

  1. I’m 38, a traumatic event 3 years ago brought everything to a head resulting in my ptsd getting so much worse. I didn’t even know what it was at the time. Then an irresponsible therapist triggered it into being full blown, mess with my life on a daily basis kind of thing. It’s funny how differently I look at things now. Hang in there

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