Repeat after me, I am not a Victim!

Yes I suffer at times, I am in pain at times, but I take daily action, I resist, I fight to live in this moment.

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What do we call ourselves, a work in progress, a fighter, a survivor, a wounded soul, who cares?

We try not to judge, not to ruminate, thinking is the path that leads to victimhood.

We have to filter our life, our abuse, through our heart space, not our brain.

Cognitively my life makes no sense, most abused kids would agree with that statement.

Life is unfair, to be born into a family, where the giant male caregiver is a violent narcissist brings a heavy burden and a life companion called fear.

This is my challenge in life. This is my life!

Judge your life as egregiously unfair, and this victim anthem will be your swan song.

I accept my plight, even though the weight of abuse and the resulting PTSD symptoms are painful.

Accepting the burden liberates me to take action.

I have entertained, temporary feelings of sorrow in weak moments.

I despise that guy.

For me, taking daily action to heal, to eat right, to exercise vigorously, to focus and to desire well-being is fulfilling, a purpose, a spiritual journey.

This is the road less traveled, it is easy to be a victim, you do nothing then complain about it.

We have a choice.

Life is a moment-to-moment battle, do I stay focused, senses heightened, or do I ruminate into thought.

Take pride in your positive attitude, your willingness to take action in the face of anxiety and fear.
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6 responses to this post.

  1. I have been taught not to compare

    So my life has been a battleground since childhood,

    I accept this plight and do my best,

    I am not wishing for normalcy or great things

    I realize my happiness comes from the actions of trying to heal

    Trying to have a safe space

    I never yearn to be famous or be around people or members of any group

    I have had to find my peace away from people

    I realize trust will never be ok but I can navigate and find Joy

  2. Posted by rudid96 on February 27, 2022 at 5:17 pm

    THANKS, I really needed to read your posts this morning. Some days, I stand at the precipice more than others. On those days, your words are the welcome breeze. The movement turns my mind to the healing direction.

  3. Never give up
    Never give in

    Play defense

    It will break its spell

  4. Posted by Anonymous on February 27, 2022 at 5:40 pm

    The statements you have made make me feel like you are finally having a bit of a breakthrough. Very well said and totally meaningful. Helpful worlds.

  5. Breakthrough no

    Just my ping ponging back from the edge

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