Yes I suffer at times, I am in pain at times, but I take daily action, I resist, I fight to live in this moment.
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What do we call ourselves, a work in progress, a fighter, a survivor, a wounded soul, who cares?
We try not to judge, not to ruminate, thinking is the path that leads to victimhood.
We have to filter our life, our abuse, through our heart space, not our brain.
Cognitively my life makes no sense, most abused kids would agree with that statement.
Life is unfair, to be born into a family, where the giant male caregiver is a violent narcissist brings a heavy burden and a life companion called fear.
This is my challenge in life. This is my life!
Judge your life as egregiously unfair, and this victim anthem will be your swan song.
I accept my plight, even though the weight of abuse and the resulting PTSD symptoms are painful.
Accepting the burden liberates me to take action.
I have entertained, temporary feelings of sorrow in weak moments.
I despise that guy.
For me, taking daily action to heal, to eat right, to exercise vigorously, to focus and to desire well-being is fulfilling, a purpose, a spiritual journey.
This is the road less traveled, it is easy to be a victim, you do nothing then complain about it.
We have a choice.
Life is a moment-to-moment battle, do I stay focused, senses heightened, or do I ruminate into thought.
Take pride in your positive attitude, your willingness to take action in the face of anxiety and fear.
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Posted by Marty on February 27, 2022 at 3:58 pm
I have been taught not to compare
So my life has been a battleground since childhood,
I accept this plight and do my best,
I am not wishing for normalcy or great things
I realize my happiness comes from the actions of trying to heal
Trying to have a safe space
I never yearn to be famous or be around people or members of any group
I have had to find my peace away from people
I realize trust will never be ok but I can navigate and find Joy
Posted by rudid96 on February 27, 2022 at 5:17 pm
THANKS, I really needed to read your posts this morning. Some days, I stand at the precipice more than others. On those days, your words are the welcome breeze. The movement turns my mind to the healing direction.
Posted by Marty on February 27, 2022 at 5:30 pm
Never give up
Never give in
Play defense
It will break its spell
Posted by Anonymous on February 27, 2022 at 5:40 pm
The statements you have made make me feel like you are finally having a bit of a breakthrough. Very well said and totally meaningful. Helpful worlds.
Posted by Marty on February 27, 2022 at 5:55 pm
Breakthrough no
Just my ping ponging back from the edge
Posted by anisioluiz2008 on February 27, 2022 at 10:25 pm
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