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From Coping with Trauma Related Dissociation: An old post and a favorite.
People with dissociative disorder often have related problems of time distortions. They experience time passing by much too slow or fast; perhaps more time has passed than they thought, or an hour seems like an entire day.
Some parts of the personality are often quite confused about where they are in space and time, believing they are still in the past.
When people with a dissociative disorder are alienated from their body, they may be insensitive to physical pain or lack sensation in parts of their body.
Some people report that they do not always always properly register heat and cold, cannot feel whether they are hungry or tired, or feel numb in their body.
Again, it is typically the case other parts of the self do feel the physical pain., the hunger, or other bodily sensations.
There are many different symptoms of depersonalization, but in every case it seems to be a way of avoidance or attempting to regulate overwhelming feelings or experiences.
Depersonalization symptoms may be temporary or chronic.
Parts of the personality that hold traumatizing experiences:
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Younger parts:
Helper parts:
Parts that imitate the people who hurt you:
Fight parts :
Ashamed parts:
Which ones are estranged inside of you?
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PTSD - A Way Out.com 
Posted by Marty on February 19, 2022 at 3:18 pm
When childhood trauma is active, life becomes confusing
When a trigger fires parts of the executive branch of our prefrontal cortex is not completely online or functioning properly
Anger was an emotion that got stuck for me
My dad, a violent narcissist, made being mad or showing anger a dangerous emotion around him
My anger scared me since I used it so seldom
Now, I carry some anger, it does not go away
It can feel like rage right below the surface when a certain trauma event reaches consciousness
Some damage seems permanent, like a big scar,
Posted by rudid96 on February 20, 2022 at 6:28 pm
When reaching the point of anger/rage, I think I dissociate. That’s when Fight shows up.
Pain or bodily harm isn’t a concern. It’s very scary when this happens because I’m no longer in my right mind.
Posted by Marty on February 20, 2022 at 6:32 pm
Bingo
You know adult children of alcoholics have included childhood abuse kids
Read about the inner drugstore
https://cptsdawayout.com/2021/05/18/inner-drugstore-and-negative-excitement-drugs/
Posted by rudid96 on February 21, 2022 at 3:10 pm
Excellent article. I venture to also add, it’s no wonder adult children of dysfunctional childhoods are hooked on the dopamine effect. Half a lifetime was spent in deprivation.
Posted by Marty on February 21, 2022 at 3:35 pm
It makes sense
I do not fire my fight or flight much but I have the dopamine
Posted by rudid96 on February 21, 2022 at 9:27 pm
Do you mean your mind/body seeks the dopamine effect? I’m not clear on your meaning.
Posted by Marty on February 21, 2022 at 11:07 pm
My fight or flight does not explode with cortisol and adrenaline dump
However my nervous system runs at an increased rate
I am hyper vigilant at times
Dopamine’s Role in Mental Health
It’s hard to pinpoint a single cause of most mental health disorders and challenges. But they’re often linked to too much or too little dopamine in different parts of the brain.
This may help
https://cptsdawayout.com/2020/03/13/the-laundry-list-adult-children-of-alcoholics/