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My inner dialogue has multiple factions (parts), multiple goals, and a battle for supremacy.
Serious Childhood abuse leads to dissociation, sometimes to the brink of splitting.
They call this DID now, dissociative identity disorder or commonly known as multiple personalities.
Child sexual abuse is the usual culprit.
Some parts are stuck in past trauma, Frozen in time, scared to death.
The rest of us Abused kids do Not split into alters but have an accumulation of damaged parts surviving in the shadows.
Here are some of my internal parts, Jock, Fighter, Helper, Curious guy, Giver (compassionate), Doer, inner Critic, Ashamed part, Worrier, and Depressed part.
If you investigate the Internal Family System, identifying the different parts, then accepting them is the goal. (https://cptsdawayout.com/2017/12/27/35953/)
My inner jock (athlete) has confidence and is at ease performing in front of others, my abused part feels ashamed, flawed, isolating in the shadows.
How many parts live inside you?
What parts are dominant, more powerful?
Some parts have more power than other parts and that is a fluid environment that can change.
Healing is the journey that allows us to speak to the healthy current parts, allowing the damaged parts a much-needed reprieve.
Know which parts you are breathing life Into and powering up.
These parts are part of our Ego.
Look how quickly a trigger powers our traumatic parts.
Realize which parts are in charge.
We do have influence!
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Posted by Sara on February 18, 2022 at 4:11 pm
I am now learning to identify and name some of these internal parts. It is such difficult and important work. There is so much to learn from and heal within each and every one.
Posted by Marty on February 18, 2022 at 4:45 pm
Trauma has many tentacles
It is complex and filled with severe anxiety and fear
I fear the unknown
What next is out there waiting for us
Posted by Sara on February 20, 2022 at 4:52 am
I know this fear…deeply. And yet something from deep within urges me to press on…to learn…to painfully stumble…and hopefully one day to ultimately heal.
Posted by Marty on February 20, 2022 at 5:21 am
Follow that inner guide persevere
Posted by rudid96 on February 20, 2022 at 6:23 pm
Mindful Marty, I’ve been following the recent posts about Parts. Question – how do you know which part you’re in? When I’m in a part, I don’t have the distance to identify it. Additionally, is it just me or does most everyone experience a kaleidoscope of parts?
Posted by Marty on February 20, 2022 at 6:30 pm
If I feel like a kid
I know
My childhood trauma is active
Try to identify them first
Then work to integrate and soothe the damaged ones
Oh we have much stronger parts because of our childhood
Our parts can dominate while normal
People may get sidetracked but not serious
Posted by rudid96 on February 21, 2022 at 3:07 pm
Thank you for your reply. When a part is triggered and you can identify that it’s connected to your past, how do you soothe it? One of your very recent posts spoke to meditative breathing and replacing the triggered area with healing breath. That provides some grounding. But what stops the ruminations?
Posted by Marty on February 21, 2022 at 3:34 pm
You fight to not judge or react to it
We observe using our meditative focused breath
Cortisol and adrenaline dissipate with focused slow breath
Ruminations need energy attention
Keep busy
Aerobic exercise
My meditation practicing works on observing everyday
It’s like any other muscle
Exercise it over and over
Repetition is our friend