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PTSD has energy, cortisol and adrenaline, fear and danger, it’s much more exciting and enjoyable than deep depression.
Depression sucks the life out of you, for abused kids it is devastating.
My legs have stopped moving while hiking from depressive thoughts and emotions.
PTSD, I can engage and battle, calm my fight or flight mechanism while observing my trauma.
Depression, I have no answer for the shame it carries.
It is an awful mental disorder, it drained the little peace of mind my life enjoyed.
Seriously abused kids get crushed by betrayal.
We fear the outside world, when we get betrayed from inside our circle, life collapses.
We will never understand how a mate betrays us, a permanent scar will make trusting another impossible.
It’s such a narrow and risky existence, death does not scare me, being ridiculed or betrayed scares me.
Death before dishonor rings true in my world, my father drilled that into me.
I have experienced a betrayal that bad, publicly shamed for a mate’s actions.
What is your worst betrayal since childhood?
Is depression or PTSD harder for you?
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Posted by rudid96 on January 13, 2022 at 12:30 am
Ah, the double-edged sword; PTSD & Depression. Which is more difficult to endure? My response is, it depends on the day, week, month. Both are debilitating. Both leave me with a sense of futility. Depression is the long, enduring, one-note sonata. The black hole of hopelessness & despair colors even small wins. Very tricky that one note.
Posted by Marty on January 13, 2022 at 1:06 am
Depression by far for me
Posted by Americaoncoffee on January 20, 2022 at 2:49 pm
Interesting.