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Can therapy fix my life?
Will I ever feel normal, have warm emotions and attachments like normal people?
Will I ever feel safe in public, around strangers, or in a relationship?
Can you show me what love is?
How does it work, feel? How can you trust, how can you feel safe?
What is it? I experienced public shame when I tried to love.
I only know abuse and betrayal, I have no idea what love is, or how it works.
How do you trust another human being?
My childhood was brutal, dad beat me with a special paddle, screaming shame-filled words as he abused me.
That son of a bitch enjoyed brutalizing me.
It would take me into adulthood before I threatened him.
He was a coward facing a grown man, but the damage was done.
A coward, my father could only bully a kid.
Love does not flow from violent childhood abuse.
How do I handle the shame from childhood, from college?
Normal kids got love, abused kids received a heavy dose of shame.
Are normal people proud of their lives?
I am ashamed of my life and do not want to be reincarnated or born again.
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