PTSD: Things normal people do not know

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Childhood for all abused kids: We experience the coldness, the cruelty, and violent dysfunction of life immediately.

It is all we know, a loving touch becomes the sting of a paddle or belt, the emotional connection becomes abusive language and criticism.

When both caregivers participate, the child’s life will be riddled with turmoil, suffering, more loss, and abuse.

I was shamed physically and emotionally by my father on a weekly basis.

This is where future drug addicts, prostitutes, alcoholics, criminals, and highly dysfunctional adults are created.

We fix very few of these kids, in my opinion.

Look at our jails, our opioid crisis, our divorce and rape rates.

Hell, we shoot each other over masks, politics and some of these people had normal childhoods?

I did not form an attachment as a kid to either parent, kids like me have never felt normal emotions of love, kindness, safety, or calm.

We do not know what a loving relationship looks like, our role models abused us.

My ego has never felt safe or worthy. I know this after a decade of therapy and intense meditation.

All those accomplishments, all those trophies did nothing for my soul.

Some of us have never loved or felt like someone loved us.

Betrayal collapses our world, we retreat, hide, hibernate and try to unplug from all people.

Was there to much damage to us that we can not feel safe enough to try and see the good.

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