I am stuck

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My Ptsd is a separate entity.

He exists inside certain cellular pockets and is stored in the right amygdala as implicit memory.

He gains access to body mechanisms and mental functions. Emotions, moods, and thoughts invade my mind.

My nervous system has always had two masters. I fight to gain control everyday.

My level of activation, cortisol, and adrenaline, runs hotter, faster than a normal person at rest.

The impact on the mind comes out through intrusive thoughts and emotions causing long-term damage.

Serious childhood abuse wired my mind in extreme danger.

My PTSD brings me shame.

Accepting, letting go, surrendering, substituting, etc. does nothing to dissipate the feeling.

Forgiving, how, I still feel the pain, the shame.

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