Real Fear versus PTSD Fear



This is what PTSD fear looks like to others watching us.

They see no danger, we feel like we are on a ledge 100 stories high, our fight or flight mechanism explodes.

My trauma drugs have stopped dumping into my nervous system, that part of my PTSD has gone dormant.

Focused breathing practice every day for months made the mechanism friendly.

Our defense mechanism, the fight or flight mechanism, called the adrenal stress response by the professionals, have no intention or emotional feelings.

When we face an imminent threat, our defense mechanism fires before thought, before any cognitive function, in fact, parts of the mind shut down to prioritize our best chance at surviving.

PTSD highjacks this mechanism, firing it erroneously at old non-lethal trauma thoughts.

PTSD has access to the on/off switch.

At my worst, my fight or flight mechanism was firing over 15 times a day.

The moral of this story eluded me, I was not damaged, imminent danger never showed up, in 15 minutes my nervous system was back to my normal.

Was I damaged? No! Why did I continue to fear I would be hurt?

I had no answer to that question.

I was deathly afraid of this mechanism firing, avoided every chance a trigger had at igniting.

No real danger exists inside this mechanism, know that the narrative of trauma drives our fears.

Our thoughts and emotions make the fight or flight scary.

I sat in the middle of my trigger firing, focused on my breath and the corresponding body sensations. I stayed present, focused which help integrate trauma to the present moment.

My fight or flight mechanism stopped firing for triggers in due time.

This is half the battle.



5 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by rudid96 on October 8, 2021 at 3:45 pm

    Presently, this trigger firing is what I’m working at detaching. It really can be so debilitating. I can’t imagine the focus it takes to ride thru the eye of the storm. I’m not there yet.

  2. It takes practice when things are calm

    Let’s zoom and we will practice together

    I can help you do this Rudid96

  3. You are much closer than you think.

    You just need a mentor to walk you thru

    Give you confidence it will work

  4. Posted by rudid96 on October 9, 2021 at 4:20 pm

    Ok Mindful Marty, thank you for your offer. I am accepting the invitation to do a practice meditation session. There is a lot of triggering around doing this but If it will enable a the healing direction, I’ll try and manage my fears, breathe deep, and do it. I don’t put my email on a public forum.
    Can you post a Zoom link here that I can use?

  5. Email me

    I gave u my email

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