We are the Shepard, the Ego is the sheep.


Theranos CEO Elisabeth Holmes, Our example of an Ego gone crazy.


We are the Shepard, the Ego is the sheep.

The sheep do not make judgments for the Shepard.

The Ego is just a creation of the mind without origin or power source.

Egos give massive power to accomplishment, status, looks, smarts, and wins.

None of that matters when we die and leave this planet.

I think most have heard of the Theranos gal, Elisabeth Holmes, who claimed to invent a world-changing blood test.


This documentary details how an out-of-control Ego is never, ever satisfied.

My Ego judged her Ego as narcissistic or deranged, someone who claimed to be greater than Thomas Edison and named her fake machine, “The Edison”.

These are grandiose Egos, abused kids marvel at how people like this can claim such importance.

She feels power and confidence in the middle of this scam’s meltdown.

An Ego like this will never admit wrongdoing or failure.

Some Egos will never admit loss, defeat, ever.

Our PTSD Ego acts differently.

We avoid, we feel danger, fear, and mistrust groups of people. We would never be outbragging in the face of a scam like this.

With my skill set, I could have coached so many kids in baseball.

With my abuse, the parents keep me away, I do not need any more drama or criticism.

I would coach the kids without the parents and enjoy it.

PTSD limits life without us understanding the reason.

I need to expand my boundaries, I need too badly but I lack the desire to be around people.

It is sad, I guess, I have never trusted people so it is familiar and safe for me.

Happiness is never experienced around people for me.



4 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by rudid96 on October 5, 2021 at 7:31 pm

    “PTSD limits life without us understanding the reason.” I would amend that sentence to PTSD limits life with AND without understanding. My heart aches when I hear you acknowledge your own set of skills lying dormant because of the effects of PTSD. Another door remains closed in your life. Maybe I ache because I identify with these limitations. I wrestle with the ambivalence of social engagement. My bandwidth for people has been severely impacted. Volunteering is a supreme effort to grow in a different direction. PTSD is a thief on so many levels.

  2. My skills are not dormant

    Waiting to be applied in a different way

    We can be happy without having lots of friends

  3. Forget about the limitations for a while

    One thing at a time

    That will unfold if we heal more

  4. Posted by rudid96 on October 5, 2021 at 9:51 pm

    Thank you, Mindful Marty. I needed to hear this today.

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