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Self: Each of us has a true self, he/she is the same every day, perfect and permanent. We create this other-self, for identity, a guy called Marty. Marty is my “Ego”.
Know this: No Ego ever feels equal to another Ego. Is this the reason our Ego is the ultimate judging machine? Walk into a room with ten people around a table, our Ego has automatically ranked us compared to everyone else. The Ego feels superior to some and inferior to others, here in lies the issue with navigating “Ego’s”.
Resentment, jealousy, anger, and other negative emotions are attached to trauma thoughts.
Realize that emotions are transparent, ephemeral, and fleeting, they arrive, stay a while then change to another emotion.
Rudid96, we place way too much importance on emotions, on thoughts, and judgments.
The Ego is a creation of the left hemisphere, a cognitive judgment of our place on this planet. This judgment takes into account how others treat us, how our first caregivers raised us, and how we value ourselves, all wrapped together in a package we call “Ego”.
The true self does not get involved in fleeting impermanent emotions, he/she observes life in the present moment free of thought.
Remember the right hemisphere of our brain has no words, thoughts, there are no judgments, no right or wrong, no good or bad on this side.
As Rick Hanson has explained in “Buddhas Brain”, you can not find an emotional center of the brain without thoughts being attached. Thoughts attach to emotions, trauma thoughts attach to violent emotions.
Marty, a left-brain invention, is flawed, I know he is in control when strong emotions arise. I have told people that they have pissed my Ego off, luckily I paid no attention.
My true self is not engaged in this worthless endeavor. My true self is not pissed, not engaged in Ptsd thoughts, not thinking in fact. No strong emotions are present, calm, and easiness takes over.
When strong emotions are present, our Ego is in control or dominating by atrocious thoughts.
My true self does not have Ptsd, the other guy, the guy who judges and thinks has PTSD. If no thought exists on the right side of my brain, no PTSD exists either.
Know we have created this Ego, and we can alter him/her with work.
Thoughts?
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Posted by Marty on September 28, 2021 at 1:58 pm
Know this: No Ego ever feels equal to another Ego. Is this the reason our Ego is the ultimate judging machine? Walk into a room with ten people around a table, our Ego has automatically ranked us compared to everyone else. The Ego feels superior to some and inferior to others, here in lies the issue with navigating “Ego’s”.
Different Ego’s have different criteria how they see themselves.
If I walked into a group of athletes, my ego would rank myself high
If I walked into a poetry class I would feel inferior
Or a knitting class
In fact go join something you know nothing about
See how your ego reacts
What thoughts arrive.
Posted by rudid96 on September 28, 2021 at 4:24 pm
The differentiation of states is clear. My Ego has some shame labeling going on. It’s confusing in that when alone, it’s easier to feel a Self-state. I dare to think I’ve crossed some metaphorical bridge. Then, out in the world and my bubble bursts. The judgmental laundry is still ever-present. It’s deflating how often there’s a flip between Ego and Self-states. But then the word ‘deflating’ and related feelings are simply the Ego judging again?
I keep returning to something you said earlier yesterday, “we practice when we’re not triggered.”
The practice offers hope for something different.
I’ve printed out this discussion on Ego and Self as well as today’s post.
My intention this will help me notice what’s happening.
The problem with PTSD, among many listed, is there’s no space for thinking or feeling.
Mindful Marty, I’m very grateful for this discourse. Thank you.
Posted by Marty on September 28, 2021 at 5:04 pm
Yes we practice when things are calm
We meditate to build focus and the ability to calm the nervous system
I am not afraid of my triggers
I can handle any trigger with my tools
Try this rudid96
Think about joining a group that Intersts you
Then think about joining a group you know nothing about
What kind of judgment to you think will happen
Any difference in the groups
What does the ego think
Posted by Marty on September 28, 2021 at 5:09 pm
If you agree we can observe ourselves
Then who is doing the observation?
I can o serve my Ptsd in action at times
I recognize the violent emotions, the danger, the irrational feelings
That is all ego
An emotion can last as little as three seconds without energy
We are
Much more than a thought or an emotion
Emotions do not make judgments any more accurate or believable
Observe your mind Rudid96
Posted by Marty on September 28, 2021 at 5:44 pm
We need to zoom