Changing, Adapting our Approach

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For those of us dealing with childhood abuse for decades, our triggers and reactions evolve.

In the beginning, triggers fired the fight or flight mechanism violently, fear and anxiety paralyzed us.

With therapy, meditation, and daily practice PTSD changed, intensity changed, symptoms changed.

The path started with awareness, next came acceptance and surrender.

It is a serpentine journey with many setbacks and a perceived fear worse than death.

The journey requires us to adapt time after time, pick ourselves up and start anew tomorrow.

My latest adaptation, has me sitting in the middle of my intrusive thoughts, doing nothing, thinking nothing, just observing.

The difference is no denying, no grasping, no thinking, no reaction, no trying to escape.

Detached, observing from a distance.

Our thoughts, abuse, and trauma are isolated, not piercing our being, not engaging our cognitive side.

Sitting in the middle of this mess, unattached, is the action, I need to repeat over, and over, and over and over and over agaain.

A Bruce Lee said, “I fear not the man who has practiced 10,000 kicks once, but I fear the man who has practiced one kick 10,000 times.”

Healing has always been simple, solutions that need to be repeated 10,000 times.

Repetition works best against Complex Ptsd, our healing action has to be bulletproof to work.

I need daily things to work on or my trauma gains power.

How about you?

Assess, what is your strongest healing skill?

Do you need to add more skills or perfect the ones you have?

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2 responses to this post.

  1. The big difference is judgment.

    Do I think when these trauma thoughts asks questions, like why, how how could they, I wish I could of responded this way
    Etc

    Reliving the trauma as a hybrid implicit memory, our life touch with time

    When a intrusive thought or trauma memory appears, time is distorted.

    The old feels alive and engages us to act, respond, actually the Ego uses our PTSD to better control us

    That’s will be the topic of next post .

  2. I am expecting a reaction Rudid96

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