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Desires wane as Ptsd matures.
Avoidance is a major symptom, we avoid at different levels.
My mental ability to navigate triggers successfully, determines life.
I have carved out a space where I can handle most of my triggers. The rest I avoid like the plague.
My mind brings enough intrusive thoughts at rest.
Certain places and people are dangerous for my emotional well-being.
My mind erupts, anticipation (worry, doubt, fear) of being in danger supercharges my PTSD.
Nothing is gained when our trauma explodes like this.
There is a heavy price to be paid if I trigger some of my scariest hidden compartments.
Desire to do some things will never be the same, other things we will never risk trying again.
After a decade of healing and suffering, this is what remains.
This is a map of my PTSD inside.
It is a balancing act and mine is way out of whack.
Trusting people or even wanting to be around them has waned.
How many things you once desired have you avoided with Ptsd?
Remember, desire and happiness are not companions.
More desire only brings more desire, not satisfaction, not happiness, nothing good.
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Posted by rudid96 on August 17, 2021 at 3:45 pm
Oh my, this says it all for me. It’s like this is a snapshot of the inside of my mind and soul. I wrestle regularly with trying to expand my limitations only to experience a rebound effect My past included periods of extroverted behavior. Now, speaking to several people in a row requires preparation and substantial decompression time.
That’s PTSD fallout.
If my therapist is too kind or I perceive she’s too close, emotional vulnerability sets off my triggers BIG TIME.
Posted by Marty on August 17, 2021 at 3:54 pm
I get pressure from friends and my daughter to get out more
Find a hobby
Join a group
Yikes
Things impact me
A friend in kundalini group is in crisis
Entered an abuse shelter
This impacts me
I feel her pain
He’ll we can not heal ourselves
How are we going to help heal others
Posted by Marty on August 17, 2021 at 4:11 pm
Extroverted behavior
Oh yes. I can let go
Then hide in the aftermath
Posted by mick8535 on August 17, 2021 at 10:34 pm
Marty, I feel for you. Must be a constant balancing act. Your post resonates, but it’s different for me. Before my C-PTSD emerged in all its rotten glory, I used to feel connected to people in my life, especially my friends. I have/had many close friends and people I enjoyed being around.
But now, even though I find myself healing, starting to feel like myself again, sort of, I find myself content to spend a lot of time by myself, alone — yet I’m not really happy being by myself, as I am lonely and kind of sad.
I know being around friends would feel good, as I am (was) a people person and really enjoy the company of others. Used to, that is. Anymore, I am becoming a hermit. Not because I am avoiding being triggered, but because I don’t know where or how I fit anymore.
Of course the COVID shit show doesn’t help, neither does the political environment in the USA, also my mom died last year, my last parent. I am an only child. My wife divorced me this year. So I have many pieces to put back together, yet I don’t even know how. Feeling alienated and isolated. Mick
On Tue, Aug 17, 2021 at 11:39 AM PTSD – A Way Out wrote:
> Marty posted: “. https://www.pinterest.com/pin/757871443547466965/ . . > Desires wane as Ptsd matures. Avoidance is a major symptom, we avoid at > different levels. My mental ability to navigate triggers successfully, > determines life. I have carved out a space where ” >
Posted by Marty on August 18, 2021 at 1:51 am
Thanks, Mick
I have been an extrovert at times
Ptsd even as you say we feel somewhat better but as you say how do we fit in
We do not fit in very well
It is a burden being around people now
I do not trust people
Not afraid of being triggered
You have stressors with death and divorce
Relationships are hard for us
Divorce is hard for us
Going to trust another woman after divorce Mick
It’s not impossible but harder for us
How do we fit in
We are different