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Intrusive thoughts are the ptsd symptom that dominates my life now.
Each day arrives with thoughts of trepidation and fear.
My main goal is security at all costs. What others think is worth a risk, holds no desire for me.
I am not afraid of my intrusive thoughts, they are my mind’s daily ritual.
Without input from me, my mind generates intrusive thoughts like an automatic weapon firing.
They do not trigger my nervous system, they ignite depression and unworthiness.
I am terrified of sharing the darkest ones with anyone.
I hide my thoughts and the way I live to survive.
It is embarrassing.
If you told me I have a month to live, I am not going to travel to some exotic place or change anything.
My bucket list holds only one item.
I have zero desire to travel or congregate with others. Give me the ability to trust and enjoy a few things.
Being healed.
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