Life has been about enduring pain



Life has been about enduring pain, enduring abuse, living without ever feeling worthy.

Being yelled at screamed at, then violently assaulted dominated my early years.

Life has been violent since my early childhood, the fear and anxiety never left.

If I had a choice, why would I choose to be born into this suffering?

How many abused kids feel the same way?

At 70, I have suffered a complete life, it is a fact.

Why did we lose the birth lottery, why were we the kids chosen to suffer?

The physical abuse fades, the emotional last a lifetime.

I have always dreamed about being different, worthy.



2 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by rudid96 on July 24, 2021 at 1:15 pm

    Mindful Marty, being ‘different’ isn’t the problem. Being comfortable and feeling worthy in the skin you’re in is more the issue.

  2. Being comfortable and feeling worthy would be entirely different for me

    I would like to live one day like a non traumatized person

    Have a brain that has experienced love and attachment

    Just to know the difference between a normal person and an abused brain

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: