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Am I too damaged to heal?
There is no figure on the percentage of seriously abused kids healing.
I wonder how many adults with a one off crisis or trauma later in life heal?
What kind of odds do people like us have in healing our childhood abuse?
I would like to know my odds or chances on this journey.
Am I fighting a losing battle?
I have devoted my life full time to healing for over a decade, intense therapy, books, meditation, and practice.
If anything I have devoted too much attention trying to heal.
So for me, I was either handling my trauma trying to heal or suffering from the symptoms.
Now, I do not know which way to turn, quit messing with my trauma trying to heal or continue full force.
My mental stability and quality of life has deteriorated.
Depression seeps into my life, all that emotional hope I carried for over a decade is fading fast.
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