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Healing is unpacking old habits, then repeatedly and persistently inserting new healthy habits.
Like staying present instead of dissociating or letting go of thought instead of ruminating or following body sensations instead of the emotion.
Not forgiving is a huge impediment to my healing.
I replace it first with my mantra, “Forgivness is for me”.
Slowly as I delve deeper into finding ways to forgive, resistance is stiff at times, but other times the path is open.
One big change, I have decided to forgive, I will find a way.
My inner critic has received the message and recognizes I am dead serious.
Know thy enemy.
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Posted by Dr. Andrea Dinardo on July 15, 2021 at 10:08 pm
When I get angry, I always ask: Why do I need to forgive?
Thank you for always showing up & sharing with your readers.
Amen to Forgiving! Especially ourselves. (We are all a work in progress)
Posted by Marty on July 16, 2021 at 2:36 am
Thank you for insight and kind words
Forgiveness perplexes me
Trauma damage from childhood challenges us beyond the cognitive model.
Is the hurt real
I wrangle with the pain being so abstract
Is it real. It feels real
It is so blown out of proportion inside my head
I have times of ease
Then in a second I am ambushed
Reliving an event trying to navigate
Trying to change
Try to get closure
I know it is a mirage