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I do not think there is a cure for childhood abuse (C-PTSD), do not think there is a space where we say, I am healed.
It is possible to learn coping skills, navigate life, and find some wellbeing.
Childhood trauma is hard wired while the brain developed, so it is never going to disappear.
There is a huge difference between actively coping with PTSD and being a victim.
Knowing I will never heal is not an opportunity to give up, the journey is the same, the results maybe different than total healing, that’s all.
I am not healed but my life has both wellbeing and suffering.
Coping is using my trauma skills to minimize PTSD’s impact when activated.
When PTSD is dormant, I Strengthen my mindfulness skills, always preparing for the next battle.
It is a precarious existence, often an internal war being waged inside the mind.
Remember our hippocampus is smaller while our amygdala is larger, combined with the left Prefrontal cortex being compromised.
Trauma will explode from time to time as we navigate life.
Our goal is to live and risk in the midst of PTSD terror and enjoy our trauma free Periods fully.
Our challenges come when intrusive thoughts bombard us at a rapid pace, then our fight or flight mechanism fires, how we handle this perceived threat determines life.
Be prepared, develop as many coping skills as possible and practice daily.
There are no guarantees with childhood trauma, life will suck at times, unworthiness and fear will prevail at times.
We do have a choice, resist or give up, deciding not to have PTSD is not an option I am aware of.
We have to be determined, courageous and have the ability to take action in the face of fear and anxiety.
I have learned not to resent my place on this earth, that is a victims stance.
Life Axiom: Sedentary is closer to death, action closer to life.
Healing takes daily action, suffering arrives without effort.
PTSD - A Way Out.com 
Posted by rudid96 on July 6, 2021 at 1:43 pm
The traumatic devastation of my life after multiple traumas made me a poster child for one with C-PTSD. Interestingly, this still hasn’t been officially recognized in the DSM.
Finding treatment is tricky and navigating the path to claiming personhood is littered with false promises. I echo the belief that there’s an indelible quality to abuse and neglect. I also have a sensitivity to spiraling into episodic periods of PTSD. Utilizing the TOOLS is part of what makes life doable. Tools and finding a few or even a tribe of healing buddies more than essential. I have a childhood friend that’s bipolar. It occurred to me that our situations parallel. She can no more erase her biochemical imbalance than I can erase my C-PTSD. We both learn to live with the imprint. Periods of wellness will always be interspersed with emotional dysregulation. I find that this knowledge sometimes leads me to enjoy periods of calm. However, I don’t lean into it, it’s more like I’m walking on eggshells. My goal is not to live in the world of Either/Or but rather to live closer to This/And That. I’m not there yet.
Hope this makes sense.
Posted by Marty on July 6, 2021 at 1:48 pm
Life is extremely tricky
A minefield
And yes we have a mental disorder
I have found few who healed from childhood abuse
It is a lifelong struggle
I am glad I never owned a handgun
Posted by rudid96 on July 6, 2021 at 3:33 pm
I understand Mindful Marty.