Lessons I have learned




After a long energetic effort with therapy and practice to heal, my life was still a damn mess.

In my old wisdom, if that is a real thing, learning to function in the midst of PTSD is the new gold on my healing path.

Listen, my childhood abuse, wiring of my brain in survival mode, is never going away.

My ability to function, discount the noise and take action is a part of my happiness in life, the oasis in this PTSD desert.

It is not about winning, it is how we fight, how much energy we exert, how much adversity can we respond to.

How resilient can we be along this path, how many times can we get back up.

This is not the road of an easy life, many succumb without much resistance.

My purpose is to live as freely as possible despite PTSD and inspire you to never give up.

We rarely take big risks.

We face adversity and the collapse of our boundaries.

Adversity is not a punishment, some think opportunity lies within adversity.

Adversity is ever present in our lives, attitude and effort are the tools needed to resist and continue living.

Effort has always been easy for me, attitude is difficult when unworthiness and depression try to consume me.

Another lesson I use is the knowledge that PTSD is cyclical, it explodes with cortisol and adrenaline, fills us with anxiety and fear, then recedes in time back to our normal.

Know the pattern of trauma firing up, staying a while then returning back to normal.

Some Wisdom: I have survived my worst flare ups already, with PTSD active and powered up, so my fear level has dropped.

PTSD can do nothing new to me that I have not already endured or survived.

So PTSD has thrown its biggest punches and I am still standing, so are you, maybe you have not realized the accomplishment yet.

Realize that therapy even once a week is only 4 hours a month, our time alone accounts for 720 hours. 720 hours versus 4 hours.

Where do you think healing will happen?

Mine happened on my own time, sometimes directed by my therapists input, most of the time while meditating using my tools.

Next, Find a mentor.

Books were my first mentor, books on neuroscience, PTSD therapies, war, meditation and holistic cures.

PTSD discussion boards were next, a negative place filled with victims acting out, taught me what not to do.

Lessons are hidden everywhere.

Now, I follow blogs that inspire me as part of my daily routine.

Please share one of your tools that has made a difference.



7 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by rudid96 on June 28, 2021 at 2:57 pm

    What’s made a difference?
    Therapist – a little. Provides an opportunity to trial run thoughts
    THIS BLOG and it’s rich resources
    Trauma grp. – if you can find at least one connection it helps AND like Mindful Marty said; learn what DOESN’T WORK

    LOTS of self-education
    On line PTSD and C-PTSD resources
    Carolyn Spring
    On-line free – Dr. Ramani

  2. Number one for me was never giving up

    If I did not have that I
    Of crashed in my low moments

    If you have childhood PTSD
    A single therapy will not heal

    The chance of finding a
    Therapist that works and the first therapy is the right one

    Is like winning the lottery

    Reading books, meditating and
    Attaining skills

    Were my most valuable healing tools

  3. Posted by rudid96 on June 30, 2021 at 2:00 pm

    I suppose ‘never giving up’ should be #1 on the list. After all, all else is worthless if one throws in the towel. There’s no magic genie.
    Sadly, I’ve come to believe (although a part of me still wants to hope there’s magic) therapy and a therapist are a necessary but smaller part of the equation. Parts of me are broken. Trust is broken. So the belief that I’ll suddenly open up and have this magical, reparative therapeutic connection is fantasy. What therapy has done is provide a live forum to hear how my own words land. Sometimes the responses are insightful. At other times, it’s merely an exercise in expanding my repertoire of tolerance. Books and Blogs equalling psychoeducation have been most effective. Oh yes, and the rare trusted trauma survivor that I’ve met along this journey.

  4. Well somewhat cynical but I agree

    Hoping to be cured is a pipe dream at this point

    My new goal is as much wellbeing as possible

    It goes back to number one

    Never give up

  5. Posted by rudid96 on July 1, 2021 at 2:37 pm

    Just listened to Eckhart Tolle and his recorded talk on “Excess Baggage.” What jumped out was his statement about the story we tell ourselves that becomes the Self. An excellent illustration of living life present and in the moment without commentary.

  6. Created Ego

    Read the last post on codependency

    Control we exert

  7. Our ego is flawed

    You can not trace the ego back and find anything

    It is for identity not core value

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