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A couple of things happened recently, an on-line session with my therapist and my kundalini teacher exposing me to ideas outside the my narrative.
I always thought my childhood was a curse, Jennifer offered the idea that having my father may of saved my life.
Now that concept was way out of the box. Never had I envisioned my childhood being a positive.
Then I saw my trauma, trying to heal trauma, clouded my whole existence.
Working on integrating my childhood, my triggers, my PTSD, neglected my inner child, my self worth and my functioning in the world right now.
Childhood PTSD is extremely complex, we get lost in that abuse forest at times.
PTSD is irrational, illogical, confusing and frightening.
We need to continually assess our path and focus.
My days are spent working on this moment, not past trauma anymore.
The change in itself feels like a breath of fresh air.
My intrusive thoughts have calmed.
I have always faced my challenges with resistance, force, not responding with strength would show weakness.
That’s my Unworthiness manifesting in blind action.
Finally I see a space, an opportunity to change.
Inner work is finally paying off.
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Posted by rudid96 on June 19, 2021 at 2:18 pm
Celebrating this moment 🙂